For anyone who reads my posts I apologize for the lack of information. I could list a heap of excuses but it all sounds very unconvincing in the great scheme of things. I pulled out of the Masters of Counseling as I found it unrewarding and not all that challenging. I have enrolled on a Masters of Theology with Southern Cross College in Sydney. I am studying "Pentecostal Hermeneutics" and it is fantastic.
One of the interesting and scary things for me over the past few weeks is that I have had 3 "words" from different people saying that I will be in full-time ministry one day and that I am called to be a pastor. I am preaching a lot more and get a great response and am asked to return for more. It is all good.
So why do I feel like crap under the surface? Why do I need a referral to a psychiatrist? Why do I feel like giving up and lying in bed all day sometimes? I get up, I go to work, I do okay in my job, I am raising 3 boys and have a wife who is mostly contented with me (barring my moods) and yet...
I will continue to walk with God but sometimes it is so hard to make sense of the mess in my head.